This afternoon I was laid off from my job. It still hasn't sunken in yet, but I'm sure tomorrow it will. I won't say that I didn't see it coming, as I'm no prude to the state of our economy right now. And I know tons of others who have met this same misfortune. I'm not even saying that I never thought it could happen to me. I'm not so proud. I actually didn't think my company would need to do this. We are a small firm, only 12 or so people, and it seems that all of the small firms are still doing decently. Either way it was sure a shock. I thought I was going to pass out when they called me to the back conference room with my project manager and the two principals. I knew what it meant, and I just wanted to go home immediately. I didn't even want to listen to what needed to be said. I felt sick in my stomach, and weak.
I was on the phone the whole way home catching people up, seeing what my mom and dad said, et cetera. Then I got home and my neighbor had left me a flower and a card on the door (for another reason), and it was so nice! It pepped me up a little.
And now I'm just sitting on the couch smoking a bunch of cigarettes (yeah good move), because I'm stressed and they make me feel better. Bad, I know. But right now I need vice!
Tomorrow I'm having breakfast with my father to formulate a game plan, and then headed to the unemployment office. Gosh I sound like a street case. Anyway, I'm not trying to depress anyone with this post. BUT just wanted you know know how I feel.
Everyone please please try to work extre, extra, extra hard at work! It will really come to mind if and when they need to lay people off. I worked very hard at my company, but sometimes, when it comes down to it, they are forced to make decisions that are really tough. Especially when it comes to layoffs.
2 comments:
I've been in your shoes before, my friend, and Boyfriend is there right now. It blows, I'm sorry :( It's a crazy time right now. I've never known anyone whose been laid off up until last year and now it's happening left and right! You'll find a new job soon :)
Boy, finally catching up with blogs. So sorry to hear the state of your situation.
Also sorry to hear you've succumbed to the power of the cig. But I suppose it's understandable.
Please know that I feel for you. This obviously happened for a reason. Keep your head up. I'll keep my eyes open. Luckily you are in a big city. There'll be something opening sooner than you think I'd bet.
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