Tuesday, March 17, 2009

It's Not Right, but it's OK. I'm gonna make it anyway.

This afternoon I was laid off from my job. It still hasn't sunken in yet, but I'm sure tomorrow it will. I won't say that I didn't see it coming, as I'm no prude to the state of our economy right now. And I know tons of others who have met this same misfortune. I'm not even saying that I never thought it could happen to me. I'm not so proud. I actually didn't think my company would need to do this. We are a small firm, only 12 or so people, and it seems that all of the small firms are still doing decently. Either way it was sure a shock. I thought I was going to pass out when they called me to the back conference room with my project manager and the two principals. I knew what it meant, and I just wanted to go home immediately. I didn't even want to listen to what needed to be said. I felt sick in my stomach, and weak.

I was on the phone the whole way home catching people up, seeing what my mom and dad said, et cetera. Then I got home and my neighbor had left me a flower and a card on the door (for another reason), and it was so nice! It pepped me up a little.

And now I'm just sitting on the couch smoking a bunch of cigarettes (yeah good move), because I'm stressed and they make me feel better. Bad, I know. But right now I need vice!

Tomorrow I'm having breakfast with my father to formulate a game plan, and then headed to the unemployment office. Gosh I sound like a street case. Anyway, I'm not trying to depress anyone with this post. BUT just wanted you know know how I feel.

Everyone please please try to work extre, extra, extra hard at work! It will really come to mind if and when they need to lay people off. I worked very hard at my company, but sometimes, when it comes down to it, they are forced to make decisions that are really tough. Especially when it comes to layoffs.


Subway Gal said...

I've been in your shoes before, my friend, and Boyfriend is there right now. It blows, I'm sorry :( It's a crazy time right now. I've never known anyone whose been laid off up until last year and now it's happening left and right! You'll find a new job soon :)

Red from Ktown said...

Boy, finally catching up with blogs. So sorry to hear the state of your situation.

Also sorry to hear you've succumbed to the power of the cig. But I suppose it's understandable.

Please know that I feel for you. This obviously happened for a reason. Keep your head up. I'll keep my eyes open. Luckily you are in a big city. There'll be something opening sooner than you think I'd bet.